Friday, July 29, 2005
someone please /
SLAP me awake.
i know alot of people would do that gladly.
i don't know why i'm thinking so much anyway.
why can't i just forget it?
it's making me go
insane.
i need help. lol.
no no, i need
retail therapy. yes.
i
MUST stand up
straight and
NEVER slouch. i look so awful with my current yucky posture!
gahhhh.suddenly, every one of the seven hundred and eighty-four songs in my realplayer library is just not suitable for my mood now.
what to do?
i feel so ; 9:44 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
i'm confused.
one day you're saying this, and another, you're doing something else. what exactly are you thinking in that mind of yours? i really want to know. and what was that strange 'interrogation' about? the one that i got from your supposedly close friend? did you ask her to do that or was it on her own accord? how is it that all her questions were so familiar and had happened before? and why did she stop replying after i told her some things? weird, isn't it? and what is up with you and your girlfriend? i would like to find out.
call me a busybody or whatever,
i don't care.
the other one has stopped messaging me. good.. or bad?
anyways, home economics project tomorrow. super screwed.
there's co practice too!! argh. 1pm to 5.30pm.
liek, how long is
that.
i feel so ; 8:06 PM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
stop being so foolish. it'll only make yourself feel miserable and sad. why can't you just face up to reality and accept the fact? waiting for me will not change my mind. instead, you should try to move on and find other girls. i'm only a small tree in the big forest. i can assure you that you're just infatuated with me. it will wear off soon, believe me. i know it. i have felt like this before but i've just never done anything about it, nothing like what you did. what are you going to do with the rest of your life then? wait for me? your life would really be meaningless like you say if that is so. with your qualities, i'm sure you can find a girl better then me. you just have to find her slowly. you're only secondary four! what makes you so sure that i'm the one you want to wait for? and you're in a boys' school! of course that's why you think that i'm the only girl who is worth waiting for. please stop it already. stop with all your sighing and sarcastic tone. you are not only hurting yourself but hurting me too. i don't mean it to be like this either. you can't force these kinds of things. but whatever the case, i'm sorry. so so sorry. and thank you, for everything you have done for me. i appreciate it tremendously.
life has been both good and bad at the same time.
the good part is the unexpected twist in my life.
well, sort of.
the bad part is the tests and homework that are piling up! haha.
i feel so ; 4:04 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
went to habourfront with my mum just now to send my camera to the canon people to repair it. hope it can be done by friday! then i can use it on saturday!!
by the way, habourfront center reminds me soo much of perth!!
but i'm feeling terrible right now. slight fever, headache, body ache, cough and a blocked nose! gahhh. still haven't recovered from last friday's fever. this is so horrible!
know what the best part is? I HAVE A SCIENCE TEST TOMORROW. LIEK, WHEE?! i'm so gonna fail it. (:
i feel so ; 7:50 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
WOO!!! THIS WHOLE WEEKEND WAS UBER FUN!!! we had our ycf on saturday and sunday! OMFG. i can't believe it's over! three performances, four minutes each, and it's OVER!
saturday was fun but my shoes got all muddy and i got a little pissed off. however, my mood changed after the performance. after our turn to go to the stage, i was smiling like an idiot. after getting released, i went for dinner at mos burger at toa payoh central with beatrice, amanda, tiffany, darius, glenna and some other people that i don't really know. beatrice and i felt like extras though. hahaha. i got to know karin, a really, really nice girl, and jun hui [sorry! not sure how to spell!] a really funny guy! haha.
sunday was less hectic and my hair was a little nicer.
my hair that they made on saturday WAS TOTALLY CHEENA! like as if i was some kind of chinese dancer. today's was just a complicated bun. lol.
okay, so as i was saying, the second performance was fun but not as fun as the last!!!! we really gave our best in the dance and jumped till our legs almost broke! when the finale came, we were grinning so widely while singing the songs! EVERYONE except the primary divison did the 'train' when the lights went out and neon spotlights came on!! they went so fast!! i kept screaming and the music was totally awesome!
so, basically, we just
singing,
screaming,
jumping,
running,
cheering,
smiling and
laughing!!!
we got a certificate of participation, a door gift, a bookmark and a tiny chicken pie after that!
I TOOK LOADS OF PHOTOS WITH ALMOST EVERYONE!! YAY. [ i hope to take more at the post-celebration next saturday!! i must! ] went to macdonald's with some of the catwalkers. my camera slipped off the table and i check to see if it was working but i didn't know that the flash was broken until i was on the bus home!!! surprisingly, my brother didn't kill me. (:
I WILL SO BLOODY HELL MISS YCF. ALL OF THE PEOPLE IN IT, THE CATWALKERS, HQ3, ALL OF OUR DANCE STEPS, ALL THE FUN PRACTICES, ALL THE CRAZY EARLY REHEARSALS AT SUCH FARAWAY PLACES, ALL THE CHEERS, ALL THE SONGS, ALL THE OTHER ITEMS' DANCES, ALL THE SPOTLIGHTS, ALL THE MUSIC... JUST SIMPLY EVERY SINGLE THING OF IT!!!! I LOVE IT! (':
i feel so ; 12:10 AM
Friday, July 15, 2005
new email
yet again.
i know some people are just going to
kill me.
haha. but what the fuck.
add if you want to. (:
i feel so ; 4:25 PM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
i'm soo happy today!!!!!! no, not because of school but because of.... hahaha! yay! haha.
actually, it's nothing much. i'm just over-reacting. lol.
anyways, ycf is finally coming!!! a 7pm show on saturday and a 11am and a 4pm show on sunday! i hope it'll be smooth sailing! no troubles or anything! it's gonna be so fun!! we're so going to take, like, LOADS of photos! i can't wait!!!
i haven't started on my three pages long home economics essay. so dead.
i feel so ; 4:55 PM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
i had fun today! i had fun on thursday too!
first things first,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FABIENNE!!i joined fabienne and the sec threes at marina south for steamboat dinner! they are such a fun bunch! hahha. but i felt weird being the only sec two there but they were super friendly so i became a little better. haha. i ate SO MUCH. was so bloated. haha. they were so cruel! the live prawns died a slow, horrible death. and there was so much chicken, man!thursday was even fun-ner! hahaha. met up with azerinna and nooraini, my two beloved!!! haha. went to tampines mall. HAD PIZZA HUT!! we were so full. hahaha.
we had so much to talk about. we kept crapping around and did so many silly things! we went to toys'r'us and went insane!
wanted to take pictures... but my damn digital camera went dead! but still, we did stupid things. hahaha..
then took neoprints! the poses were so funny! then we went home. oh man.
meeting vivian at seven am tomorrow for breakfast at macdonald's!!! must go to damai secondary after that for dance rehearsal. tiring!! maybe i'm gonna get my racial harmony costume.
i feel so ; 10:44 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
i am dead tired today.
went to school feeling like a zombie. sat through long, boring lessons... i didn't even have any energy to write nicely. felt like sleeping thorugh the whole day at school.
after BORING school, we went to have lunch and was on our way to singapore poly. the bus trip was fun! kajie, shijie, joshua, ervin, yixiang were near us and they kept crapping and laughing and we kept taking photos! haha. the bus ride was faster than i expected. we reached dover in half an hour.
headed for the auditorium where i was bored to tears. i almost dozed off like a million times. watched a FREAKING LAME VIDEO about what courses there are in singapore poly. had a treasure hunt. it drained all my energy. we kept walking round and round in circles but somehow, i didn't get to go to my brother's info communications block. i thought i would have seen him around but i didn't.
saw a few cute guys. hahaha.
it was blazing hot, by the way.
after walking around too many times, we forgot the time and were late to meet them to go onto the bus. they had to come find us and by then i was DEAD. thirsty, tired and hungry.
the ride back to school was even faster. hahaha. saw the rugby boys getting lectured by their coach. oh man.. walked home with jean.
oh man. i have to organise my science file, finish a chinese workbook exercise and a maths textbook exercise. i still have not done my chinese tuition homework which was given to me before the june holidays even started. i know, i'm a lazy bitch but what can i do? i mean i have to write a damn CHINESE letter.
i've got chinese orchestra practice at CHANGKAT CC tomorrow. omfg. why?
why??!! last minute practise for next tuesday's assembly performance.
WHAT PERFROMANCE?!
hsinrui doesn't have band tomorrow but i have to have co. and there's still dance at 7pm!
what the hell. i'm still coughing. damn la.
i feel so ; 6:53 PM
Monday, July 04, 2005
ARGHH my nose is killing me.
had fun today. they are SO funny. hahaha.. but i'm dead beat with a runny nose and there's still school tomorrow plus a singapore polytechnic tour after school. TIRING.
I'M FREAKING HAPPY TODAY. HAHAHAHAAH. i saw someone i totally didn't expect to see. it's so coincidental! i just wished him to be there without expecting it to come true but it did! AND HE WAVED!! hahaha
i feel so ; 9:05 PM
gonna meet hsinrui at twelve. we are going to orchard! then after that, we're going to meet daiyu, joel and aldrich and watch war of the worlds!
but dang, i haven't done any homework. my science holiday homework is still not completed and i have not found any newspaper articles for geography. holy crap.
anyhoos,
AZERINNA! sorry girl. can't catch a movie with you today.. another day, yes? and try calling nooraini along too!
ooh.. i just realised that it's the 4th of july. america's day of independence.
i'm sick la. runny nose and sore throat. i hate sore throats!
i feel so ; 11:30 AM
Friday, July 29, 2005
someone please /
SLAP me awake.
i know alot of people would do that gladly.
i don't know why i'm thinking so much anyway.
why can't i just forget it?
it's making me go
insane.
i need help. lol.
no no, i need
retail therapy. yes.
i
MUST stand up
straight and
NEVER slouch. i look so awful with my current yucky posture!
gahhhh.suddenly, every one of the seven hundred and eighty-four songs in my realplayer library is just not suitable for my mood now.
what to do?
i feel so ; 9:44 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
i'm confused.
one day you're saying this, and another, you're doing something else. what exactly are you thinking in that mind of yours? i really want to know. and what was that strange 'interrogation' about? the one that i got from your supposedly close friend? did you ask her to do that or was it on her own accord? how is it that all her questions were so familiar and had happened before? and why did she stop replying after i told her some things? weird, isn't it? and what is up with you and your girlfriend? i would like to find out.
call me a busybody or whatever,
i don't care.
the other one has stopped messaging me. good.. or bad?
anyways, home economics project tomorrow. super screwed.
there's co practice too!! argh. 1pm to 5.30pm.
liek, how long is
that.
i feel so ; 8:06 PM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
stop being so foolish. it'll only make yourself feel miserable and sad. why can't you just face up to reality and accept the fact? waiting for me will not change my mind. instead, you should try to move on and find other girls. i'm only a small tree in the big forest. i can assure you that you're just infatuated with me. it will wear off soon, believe me. i know it. i have felt like this before but i've just never done anything about it, nothing like what you did. what are you going to do with the rest of your life then? wait for me? your life would really be meaningless like you say if that is so. with your qualities, i'm sure you can find a girl better then me. you just have to find her slowly. you're only secondary four! what makes you so sure that i'm the one you want to wait for? and you're in a boys' school! of course that's why you think that i'm the only girl who is worth waiting for. please stop it already. stop with all your sighing and sarcastic tone. you are not only hurting yourself but hurting me too. i don't mean it to be like this either. you can't force these kinds of things. but whatever the case, i'm sorry. so so sorry. and thank you, for everything you have done for me. i appreciate it tremendously.
life has been both good and bad at the same time.
the good part is the unexpected twist in my life.
well, sort of.
the bad part is the tests and homework that are piling up! haha.
i feel so ; 4:04 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
went to habourfront with my mum just now to send my camera to the canon people to repair it. hope it can be done by friday! then i can use it on saturday!!
by the way, habourfront center reminds me soo much of perth!!
but i'm feeling terrible right now. slight fever, headache, body ache, cough and a blocked nose! gahhh. still haven't recovered from last friday's fever. this is so horrible!
know what the best part is? I HAVE A SCIENCE TEST TOMORROW. LIEK, WHEE?! i'm so gonna fail it. (:
i feel so ; 7:50 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
WOO!!! THIS WHOLE WEEKEND WAS UBER FUN!!! we had our ycf on saturday and sunday! OMFG. i can't believe it's over! three performances, four minutes each, and it's OVER!
saturday was fun but my shoes got all muddy and i got a little pissed off. however, my mood changed after the performance. after our turn to go to the stage, i was smiling like an idiot. after getting released, i went for dinner at mos burger at toa payoh central with beatrice, amanda, tiffany, darius, glenna and some other people that i don't really know. beatrice and i felt like extras though. hahaha. i got to know karin, a really, really nice girl, and jun hui [sorry! not sure how to spell!] a really funny guy! haha.
sunday was less hectic and my hair was a little nicer.
my hair that they made on saturday WAS TOTALLY CHEENA! like as if i was some kind of chinese dancer. today's was just a complicated bun. lol.
okay, so as i was saying, the second performance was fun but not as fun as the last!!!! we really gave our best in the dance and jumped till our legs almost broke! when the finale came, we were grinning so widely while singing the songs! EVERYONE except the primary divison did the 'train' when the lights went out and neon spotlights came on!! they went so fast!! i kept screaming and the music was totally awesome!
so, basically, we just
singing,
screaming,
jumping,
running,
cheering,
smiling and
laughing!!!
we got a certificate of participation, a door gift, a bookmark and a tiny chicken pie after that!
I TOOK LOADS OF PHOTOS WITH ALMOST EVERYONE!! YAY. [ i hope to take more at the post-celebration next saturday!! i must! ] went to macdonald's with some of the catwalkers. my camera slipped off the table and i check to see if it was working but i didn't know that the flash was broken until i was on the bus home!!! surprisingly, my brother didn't kill me. (:
I WILL SO BLOODY HELL MISS YCF. ALL OF THE PEOPLE IN IT, THE CATWALKERS, HQ3, ALL OF OUR DANCE STEPS, ALL THE FUN PRACTICES, ALL THE CRAZY EARLY REHEARSALS AT SUCH FARAWAY PLACES, ALL THE CHEERS, ALL THE SONGS, ALL THE OTHER ITEMS' DANCES, ALL THE SPOTLIGHTS, ALL THE MUSIC... JUST SIMPLY EVERY SINGLE THING OF IT!!!! I LOVE IT! (':
i feel so ; 12:10 AM
Friday, July 15, 2005
new email
yet again.
i know some people are just going to
kill me.
haha. but what the fuck.
add if you want to. (:
i feel so ; 4:25 PM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
i'm soo happy today!!!!!! no, not because of school but because of.... hahaha! yay! haha.
actually, it's nothing much. i'm just over-reacting. lol.
anyways, ycf is finally coming!!! a 7pm show on saturday and a 11am and a 4pm show on sunday! i hope it'll be smooth sailing! no troubles or anything! it's gonna be so fun!! we're so going to take, like, LOADS of photos! i can't wait!!!
i haven't started on my three pages long home economics essay. so dead.
i feel so ; 4:55 PM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
i had fun today! i had fun on thursday too!
first things first,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FABIENNE!!i joined fabienne and the sec threes at marina south for steamboat dinner! they are such a fun bunch! hahha. but i felt weird being the only sec two there but they were super friendly so i became a little better. haha. i ate SO MUCH. was so bloated. haha. they were so cruel! the live prawns died a slow, horrible death. and there was so much chicken, man!thursday was even fun-ner! hahaha. met up with azerinna and nooraini, my two beloved!!! haha. went to tampines mall. HAD PIZZA HUT!! we were so full. hahaha.
we had so much to talk about. we kept crapping around and did so many silly things! we went to toys'r'us and went insane!
wanted to take pictures... but my damn digital camera went dead! but still, we did stupid things. hahaha..
then took neoprints! the poses were so funny! then we went home. oh man.
meeting vivian at seven am tomorrow for breakfast at macdonald's!!! must go to damai secondary after that for dance rehearsal. tiring!! maybe i'm gonna get my racial harmony costume.
i feel so ; 10:44 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
i am dead tired today.
went to school feeling like a zombie. sat through long, boring lessons... i didn't even have any energy to write nicely. felt like sleeping thorugh the whole day at school.
after BORING school, we went to have lunch and was on our way to singapore poly. the bus trip was fun! kajie, shijie, joshua, ervin, yixiang were near us and they kept crapping and laughing and we kept taking photos! haha. the bus ride was faster than i expected. we reached dover in half an hour.
headed for the auditorium where i was bored to tears. i almost dozed off like a million times. watched a FREAKING LAME VIDEO about what courses there are in singapore poly. had a treasure hunt. it drained all my energy. we kept walking round and round in circles but somehow, i didn't get to go to my brother's info communications block. i thought i would have seen him around but i didn't.
saw a few cute guys. hahaha.
it was blazing hot, by the way.
after walking around too many times, we forgot the time and were late to meet them to go onto the bus. they had to come find us and by then i was DEAD. thirsty, tired and hungry.
the ride back to school was even faster. hahaha. saw the rugby boys getting lectured by their coach. oh man.. walked home with jean.
oh man. i have to organise my science file, finish a chinese workbook exercise and a maths textbook exercise. i still have not done my chinese tuition homework which was given to me before the june holidays even started. i know, i'm a lazy bitch but what can i do? i mean i have to write a damn CHINESE letter.
i've got chinese orchestra practice at CHANGKAT CC tomorrow. omfg. why?
why??!! last minute practise for next tuesday's assembly performance.
WHAT PERFROMANCE?!
hsinrui doesn't have band tomorrow but i have to have co. and there's still dance at 7pm!
what the hell. i'm still coughing. damn la.
i feel so ; 6:53 PM
Monday, July 04, 2005
ARGHH my nose is killing me.
had fun today. they are SO funny. hahaha.. but i'm dead beat with a runny nose and there's still school tomorrow plus a singapore polytechnic tour after school. TIRING.
I'M FREAKING HAPPY TODAY. HAHAHAHAAH. i saw someone i totally didn't expect to see. it's so coincidental! i just wished him to be there without expecting it to come true but it did! AND HE WAVED!! hahaha
i feel so ; 9:05 PM
gonna meet hsinrui at twelve. we are going to orchard! then after that, we're going to meet daiyu, joel and aldrich and watch war of the worlds!
but dang, i haven't done any homework. my science holiday homework is still not completed and i have not found any newspaper articles for geography. holy crap.
anyhoos,
AZERINNA! sorry girl. can't catch a movie with you today.. another day, yes? and try calling nooraini along too!
ooh.. i just realised that it's the 4th of july. america's day of independence.
i'm sick la. runny nose and sore throat. i hate sore throats!
i feel so ; 11:30 AM
