Tuesday, August 30, 2005

okay. i just have to get this off my chest.

why can't some people type normally? why must they go around typing like a freaking retard? what's the need for them tO gO aRoUnD tYpInG lyK dIs wOrX?? adding lOrX and hOrX in almost every single sentence. it's so airheaded.
changing the love word into a super mega hit combo seems so cool to them! the longer they can drag the word, the cooler they are! love gets changed into luurrbbee and is into ishh. wow-wee. what the fuck. it seems cutting short words is also cool too. changing heart into hart, ever into ebba, friend into fwen or don't know to dunchno, like to lyk.. these are just a small fraction of the whole zillion others that they had apparently thought up using their brains for useless stuff like this.
misusing and overusing symbols like underscores, asterisks, inverted commas, fullstops, slashes, tildes, plus signs, etc. is also major fun for them. almost every symbol that you can find on your keyboard can all be used by them in just a span of a few sentences.

some act all emo and stuff. acting all depressed and sad in their friendsters and blogs when in actual fact, they're perfectly happy.

their habit of taking photos with the camera extremely close up and taken from the top of their foreheads only make them look more brainless. with their photo captions like, ii mishh euu and ii lurrbbe euu, sadd moii, or worse still, their english gets confused and they say it as moii mishh euu or sadded moii. that's just.. totally wrong. that, or contradiction with captions like miie look soo ugly!, ugly moii! or moii actingg cute onlii.
well, if that's the case, then why the fuck bother putting it up?? i seriously don't understand.

no offence to anybody who is like this, but i [and LOADS of other people too] suggest that if you are guilty of all that i have mentioned and more, please, PLEASE stop all this nonsense. it's NOT cool. it's imbecilic, idiotic and mindless.

brrr. damn. typing this entry is giving me a headache and a finger ache too. lol.

maths paper was terrible today. lost 21 marks already!!! a definite fail. i'm so so ruined!

Sunday, August 28, 2005

i was just looking at the seventeen [US] website...

my gosh!!! look at all those GORGEOUS shoes!!!!
ohmigod. ohmigod.
marc jacobs, roberto cavalli, dior, alexander mcqueen, vivienne westwood.... flaming hot stuff!

omg. makes me wanna wear heels everywhere i go.
but i can't, you see. reason is because i'll end up looking like a tall giraffe freak.
yah. so.. yah. i shall go hit the wall again.


fuck them celebrities. lol.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

1. What is your middle name? kai qi?
2. What color underwear are you wearing now? beige.
3. What are you listening to right now? cute guy's voice. (:
4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 02
5. What was the last thing you ate? instant noodles.
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? blue.
7. How is the weather right now? i'm guessing, still.
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? :D
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair. lol!
10. Favorite type of food? italian and japanese.
11. Do you drink? sometimes.
12. Do you smoke? nahh.
13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did? nope.
14. Hair color? dark brown.
15. Eye color? dark brown.
16. Do you wear contacts? yes.
17. Single? yep.
18. Favorite Month? december.
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? a few times.
20. Last movie you watched? ocean's twelve.
21. Favorite Day of the Year? christmas!!
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? yup. most of the time.
23. Hugs or Kisses? both.
24. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate. [or vanilla.]
25.Do you want your friends to respond? why not?
26. Who is most likely to respond? dunno.
27. Who is least likely to respond? dunno either.
28. What books are you reading? the mediator.
29. Piercings? ears.
30. Fav. movie? most of the movies that i've watched are nice.
31. Fav. baseball team? don't watch baseball.
32. Any pets? two cats! ginger and patches!
33. YAHOO!? do you yahoo?
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? anything's fine.
35. Dogs or cats? cats! :D [dogs are great too.]
36. Favorite Flower? any flower's nice.
37. Have you ever fired a gun? nope. would love to though.
38. Do you like to travel by plane? it's okay.
39. Right-handed or Left-handed? right-handed.
40. How many pillows do you sleep with? one pathetic one.
41. Are you missing someone? yep. missing loads of people.
42. Who do you think is gorgeous? liv tyler, catherine zeta-jones. many others actually.

My Confessions Include...

[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an ipod.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for eyes.
[x] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.
[ ] I have "x"s on my buddy list. (in sn's)
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with someone.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.(its a book)
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a moth in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see/have seen a therapist.
[x] I love chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails. [sometimes.]
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] Play computer games/video games when I'm bored.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[ ] Saw a shooting star.
[ ] Had a serious injury.
[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[ ] Kissed a stranger.
[ ] Hugged a stranger.
[x] Been in a fight with the same sex. (verbally)
[ ] Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts.

haha. wheee. from az. :D

Friday, August 26, 2005

had chinese and geography today. chinese was quite okay considering that i was staring at the vocabulary book last night and this morning before the test. although i still left one pathetic blank! i totally had no idea what the comprehension was talking about. i was rushing three comprehension questions. the time just flys when you don't know stuff.

geography kind of killed me. i wrote lots of crap. i know what's an ecosystem but i don't know how to put it down in words! i didn't really read up on that. oh, my handwriting was pretty atrocious too.

had prata at simpang after school! yum.

going to school at ten tomorrow. to revise my maths. in school uniform!! my maths is so bad that i don't even know the basics on most chapters.

i wanna exercise.
after the common tests, one week holidays!!! SHOPPING, SLEEPOVER, DAY AT A BEACH. whee! fun!! let's just hope i do well ya. haha.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

wow. school was boring. haha. had art today. mrs jonoh told us not to lift the pencil from the paper and i kept lifting so she hit my hand. ouchie.

went to kfc for lunch. i am broke once again. saw two hot guys but they left quite fast. after that, while walking to the bus stop, we saw them again with another bunch of cute guys [in jc uniform. hmm..] at starbucks! hahahaha. whee.

i had the most boring sunday ever. sat at the wake from 3pm to 8pm doing absolutely nothing except snacking! by the time i left, which was by myself in a cab, they were still waiting to start chanting!

this is scary! common tests are nearing! thank god my dad is flying back to china on thursday. that's the first paper! haha phew.

i wanna change my phone to the nokia N90!! it's so prettieee! haha. oh and i haven't watched a movie since forever. gosh! it's unbelievable how long it has been. what is wrong with me.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

just got back from harbourfront. went to telok blangah again for an FD meeting. all the three HQs were there. super crowded!

hmm. it was alright. lots of talking. many people went up to give testimonials and talks. yeah. sat there stoning and talking crap with friends. hsinrui couldn't go! oh man. had a group photo! many, many people squeezed into one photo! hahaha. squatted till my legs hurt!

after that went for dinner at harbourfront with beatrice. hahaha. we are good bitching partners! walked around for a bit. went in rounds. lol. hmm. then we had macdonald's again!!! gahh. used the computer there. haha. the keyboard sucked. someone with obsessive complusive disorder must have used it. the person must have kept pressing the spacebar or something because it so wasn't working properly. anyways. walked a bit more then we went home. such a long train ride. then i still had to take a 229 back.

now, i'm waiting for my dad to pick me up to go to my uncle's wake. he just passed away this morning. so sudden.

the freaky part is that it happened twice in a row. the last time my dad came back from china, my auntie [uncle's wife] passed away. then now, he came back again and my uncle passed away too. not that they were very healthy or anything but still! so coincidental! creepy.

ookay. so there's nothing else to blog about. bye.

you know that i exist now but you pretend that you don't know a single shit.
what do you take me for? a fool? no hello, no goodbye. what the fuck.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

turns out, i didn't go to parkway. instead, i went to gourmet plus at frankel avenue.

yummy yummy food!!! their desserts are so superb. i had a chocolate cake with hot fudge on top together with vanilla ice cream and then after that i ordered one more dessert which was a pear tart and vanilla ice cream. so delicious. :9

gosh! i so need to exercise!!!

the nine o'clock show on channel eight is pretty interesting. lol.

the week has been going quite well..

did my advertisement today during english. it was a total failure but so fun! haha.

hmm. now i'm gonna go to parkway for my dinner with me dad and mum.

byeeeee.

Monday, August 15, 2005

it's such a mundane monday today. i'm getting bored out of my wits.
i probably said that 3849329 times already.

i feel so dumb.
stupid; idiotic; brainless; foolish; imbecilic; inane; naive; gullible; moronic; senseless.

i'm such a retard. it was so obvious, how could i not see it?!
someone kill me now, use a shotgun/machine gun/bazooka/knife/dagger/chopper/pen knife/fork/chopsticks whatever makes you happy just kill me as quickly as possible kthx.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

my dad came back this morning, like around five. almost two days delayed.

yup. then my brother's poly friends came over to use photoshop and illustrator. they used both computers for the entire day.

they only left after my dad, my mum and i went to bedok food center for dinner. my dad kept complaining that bfc is lousy. ahahhaha. i find it okay la.
he's so fussy and yet he ate so much.

yesterday's family day performance was okay. got to see amanda, beatrice and waimun! oh and glenna! ((: but i was also kinda sad about.. it really dampened my mood quite a bit.

Friday, August 12, 2005

GIRL TALK

01. Do you stuff your bra? nope.
02. Have you ever stuffed your bra? nah.
03. What make-up do you wear daily? usually nothing. maybe eyeliner.
04. What are your underwear like right now? it's in beige? haha.
05. How many pairs of shoes do you own? many. but only a few that i really wear.
06. Come on, tell the truth. Is that really your true hair color? yep.
07. What do you most like about your body? eh. my.... right ear? LOL.
08. And least? my frikking fat thighs!
09. How many fillings do you have? ? in the teeth? none.
10. Do you think you're good looking? ask my friends!
11. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? it's just a form of courtesy, i guess.
12. Do you look like any celebrities? not exactly.
13. Do you like a man with muscles or not? not too much that he looks like some oversized... thing.
14. Tall or short men? erm. tall or short. as a partner, tall please. as a friend, both are fine. (:
15. Does your dream guy have long or short hair? depends on whether he suits the hairstyle.
16. What's the hair situation 'down there'? right.
17. How long is your leg hair? they're gone. haha.
18. Ever come close to having sex, but didn't? eh.. no?
19. With who? (:
20. If so, why didn't you? .
21. Are your eyebrows a different color from your hair? no.
22. Do you pluck your eyebrows? yep.
23. When did you last have a hickey, and where? i haven't had one.
24. Are you on birth control? no. lol.
25. Can you dance? sort of.
27. Do you struggle with self-esteem? yeah. sometimes.
28. Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder? nopes.
30. If you unexpectedly got pregnant, what would you do? discuss with the bloody guy. HAHA.
31. Future daughters/sons names? dunno. it'll have to match with their sirname.
32. Do your underwear and bras usually match? not on purpose. haha.

X THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE!!

(X) snuck out of the house
(X) gotten lost in your city
( ) saw a shooting star
(X) been to any other countries besides singapore
( ) had a serious surgery
( ) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(X) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
( ) been in love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) skinny-dipped
(X) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
( ) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
( ) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
( ) gotten the chicken pox
(X) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
(X) been to Japan
(X) ridden in a taxi
(X) been dumped
( ) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
(X) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(X) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(X) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been skiing/snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
( ) purposely hurt yourself
( ) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now and another!!

[liek, i'm such a loser. haven't done so many things!!
except for those bad ones that i do not ever wish to do.]

THE PAST

01. Any good memories from this year? that day at pizzahut with my besties! drumming festival. YCF! esplanade on the sixth of august. and many others!
02. Any bad memories from this year? not many yet.
03. Do you regret anything from this year? yes.
04. Do you regret anything you've ever done? alot of stuff i regret doing.
05. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? big C. kind of. well, i don't know aye.
06. Did you ever have braces? yup! just took them off. whee.
07. What is your best childhood memory? playing masak with my auntie!
08. Do you have the same friends you did when you were seven and under? i've lost touch with all of them. it's sad.
09. What color hair did you have as a kid? black? dark brown?
10. What does your name mean? i've read somewhere that it means honey bee. and it's a herb name. (:

THE PRESENT

01. Current Music: reckless abandon - blink 182
02. Current CD in player: empty.
03. Current conversations: nicholas and some sex-crazed freak whom i do NOT know.
04. Current time: 7.55pm
05. Current clothes: school uniform.
06. Current hair: tied up but still messy.
07. Current taste: air. lol.
08. Current mood: famished.
09. Current smell: i don't smell anything.
10. Current thing you should be doing: bathing or eating. lol.
11. Current desktop picture: it's a blue lemon on a white background. yes, irony.
12. Current favorite group: dashboard confessional / box car racer / blink 182 :D
13. Current book: hmm. the mediator.
14. Current refreshment: none.
15. Current worry: common tests and THAT GUY.
16. Current crush: (:

ahh. i haven't done these surveys for soooooo long! haha. ripped it off from az. ahahaha. thanks babe.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

boring day at school, as usual.

jean was sick. so was hsinrui. poor girls! hope they recover soon. take care yeahs?
well, i'm not too good myself. been having this cough and sore throat for like, weeks!

went to parkway after school with my momma. hahaha. i'm feeling super bad right now because i just spent alot on clothes. they're pretty! couldn't resist! haha.
thank you mummy! i love her so much! haha. i better study hard. make her feel happier.

oh, dad coming home tomorrow.
i know that you guys know that already but i'm just typing it down for fun. yeah.

home econs tomorrow! gonna do some cooking! wonder what we must cook. also, we have to film the advertisement for english lesson. it's gonna be so embarrassing!

ouch, my finger.
there are like a thousand bags hanging from my study room door handle. it's difficult to even close the door properly!

that's reminds me.. I WANT THAT BLOODY ROXY BAG THAT'S HANGING OFF CITILINK MALL'S FLASH AND SPLASH RACK.

fuck it, i just remembered that there's co practice tomorrow!!

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

what kind of fucking air conditioner is this anyway?
one degree lower and it's freaking cold, one degree higher and it's like as if it's not even on.
haha but whatever.

i'm so not looking forward to school tomorrow!
thursdays just suck.

i have been camping online. boy, am i sooo bored.

my thighs are just so fat!!! can't stand it anymore! it pains me just to look at them.

omfg. i really have no life whatsoever. blogging twice in a day! and on such random stuff.. how pathetic. i shall go hit my head on the wall.. or something. bye.

i miss him.

i'm stoned.

i still have chinese tuition at three.

school starts tomorrow. eugh.

common tests are starting in two weeks time.

my dad is coming home this friday.

*faints*

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Monday, August 08, 2005

alright. this is gonna be such a long post, you'll cry reading. hahahaha.

i'll start with saturday. met vivian and headed to harbourfront. wanted to buy a red top for monday but i ended up buying a polo and a pair of shorts instead. hee. bumped into hsinrui and her family having their lunch, so we got a lift to ssa. haha. i don't know what was up with me but i just couldn't dance properly. i kept messing up. eugh. horrible.

after that, hsinrui and i went to city hall to meet kajie first. the others came at 6.30. [daiyu, aldrich, chinhan, yixiang.]
we went window shopping while waiting for the others.
WE SAW THIS BLACK ROXY BAG WHICH IS ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS AND COSTS ONLY FIFTY BUCKS! sadly, however, i did not have enough moolah.
i miss it. i HAVE to go back there to buy it.
okay, so, we met them and walked over to esplanade. there were loads of people. super crowded. i bumped into some dance people too!

we wanted to eat so we crossed over to marina square. that place was under renovation so we were pretty lost. ate at cavana. they only sell chicken dishes. haha. i bought a cup of ice milo for two bucks and clumsy me had to go drop the cup and spill it over the table. lols. the manager was so nice though!! he gave me another cup of ice milo, free of charge! so kind of him! hahaha.

oh, the sad thing was, the fireworks started while we were eating!!! we caught a glimpse of it through the reflection on the building opposite of us. we could only see half of the fireworks. but it was still nice! i especially like the sparkles. ahha. so beautiful. (:

after eating, we slacked around and decided to go back to the esplanade. bought cotton candy!! it's been years since i ate one of those. hsinrui bought me a light stick!! yay! thanks! haha. hmm. we sat at the steps and took lots of photos! lots and lots of spastic and funny photos! i love them so much! haha.

the performance started at ten. that was the time we had to leave. haha. how pathetic. hmm. but still, it was fun! next time, we come [not leave] at ten! that'll be much much fun-ner. haha. reached home at around twelve. everyone's scared to walk alone at this time of the month. it's freaking me out. haha

yesterday, i met huifang, vivienne and claire. we went to victoria concert hall but were freaking early so we walked back to near the mrt to get a drink [ice milo AGAIN] from macdonald's and then we walked back. haha. how retarded.
when we reached, everyone blamed us for being late.
liek, what-ever.
the concert was just totally boring to me. i guess i don't understand the music. too bad for me then. it was a chinese orchestra concert.

when it finally ended after two hours, we headed down to bugis. ate mos burger. yum!
walked over to bugis street. i still needed to buy a red top for monday. vivienne needed to buy jeans. i bought this pair of cute pink button earstuds. haha. also this pair of black shorts for twenty-two bucks! i really can't bargain.

all three of them bought the same jeans for twenty-five dollars each. omg. i love it too! the colour, the cutting and everything! but when i tried it on, it looked so weird!

i regret not buying it though!! i could have gotten it for even cheaper! they found out that another store was selling it for twenty-three. haha. they got kinda pissed off about it and complained to the uncle who sold it to them which made them even more infuriated. but oh well... dammit. i still want one pair. oh. and i didn't buy anything red. haha.

i wore the red polo that i wore last year today. great.

i need a bloody bag la. that roxy one will fit perfectly!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

i've decided.

i'll try not to care anymore. i said TRY.
i don't know if i can do it but i'll try my best.

for now, i will just hang out and spend my time with all my friends, especially my besties. they're the best!
friends are far more important anyways.
they are like, for life.
i love all of you!

i'm beginning to really hate school. okay, maybe i already hated it from the start, but now, it just plainly sucks to the effing core.
i think it's because of two reasons.
one, abraham is on course and so, alot of the teachers want to have higher authority.
[ha. what losers.]
two, mr lak is just fucks la.

every teacher is coming into the class in a bad mood. then, they vent all their anger on us.
english is turning dumb. english is a language. why the hell do we have to learn how to read and create advertisements??

maths is boring. just, extremely boring. i can't explain it. it does not interest me at all. mr sum is so long-winded. but one thing that's good about him, he can't scold for nuts during class! he'll get all fierce and scary but before you know it, he'll crack a joke and we laugh, then he'll laugh with us. he's nice la.. usually.

science is just a completely blur to me. it's like, i don't know what the hell she's talking about!!! i'm so gonna fail my science. miss sim is nice most of the time, except when she asks me questions!

geography and history are still okay. the teachers are pretty lenient. miss lian is a little naggy at times, but she has lightened up alot compared to the last two terms. i lost my bloody geography workbook! mr lim [or lee. until now, i'm still not sure. LOL!] forgets about homework. hahaha! he gives us lots of history notes too.

art is a killer subject for me. i can't catch up!! she goes too bloody fast! mrs jonoh is like funny and fierce at the same time. kinda scary. but she's very sarcastic and on good terms with the girls. haha.

chinese lesson can go to hell, burn and die. miss dong is too soft. hard to hear what she's saying with her accent too. she looks like she's talking to herself sometimes. lol. i pity her at times but usually i just can't stand her. i don't why either. it's like, i just don't look forward to seeing her. hahaha. i know, i sound so bias against her. lol.

ho-kay. enough about my damn school life.

i need to shop. it has been so long. i need it to study! hahaHAHA. lols. dammit.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i'm slowly slipping into depression.

omg, i sound so emo but yeah, it's kind of true.

i don't know what to do anymore.

i feel so fucking used.

actually, i shouldn't be feeling this way.

i should have known.

i had been warned beforehand.

argh, fuck this.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

i was on cloud nine yesterday...
but i just came back down to earth, hitting the ground really hard.

so painful.

it's really hurting to know.

but i guess i'm happy because i still had a chance.

(: ..

): .

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

okay. i just have to get this off my chest.

why can't some people type normally? why must they go around typing like a freaking retard? what's the need for them tO gO aRoUnD tYpInG lyK dIs wOrX?? adding lOrX and hOrX in almost every single sentence. it's so airheaded.
changing the love word into a super mega hit combo seems so cool to them! the longer they can drag the word, the cooler they are! love gets changed into luurrbbee and is into ishh. wow-wee. what the fuck. it seems cutting short words is also cool too. changing heart into hart, ever into ebba, friend into fwen or don't know to dunchno, like to lyk.. these are just a small fraction of the whole zillion others that they had apparently thought up using their brains for useless stuff like this.
misusing and overusing symbols like underscores, asterisks, inverted commas, fullstops, slashes, tildes, plus signs, etc. is also major fun for them. almost every symbol that you can find on your keyboard can all be used by them in just a span of a few sentences.

some act all emo and stuff. acting all depressed and sad in their friendsters and blogs when in actual fact, they're perfectly happy.

their habit of taking photos with the camera extremely close up and taken from the top of their foreheads only make them look more brainless. with their photo captions like, ii mishh euu and ii lurrbbe euu, sadd moii, or worse still, their english gets confused and they say it as moii mishh euu or sadded moii. that's just.. totally wrong. that, or contradiction with captions like miie look soo ugly!, ugly moii! or moii actingg cute onlii.
well, if that's the case, then why the fuck bother putting it up?? i seriously don't understand.

no offence to anybody who is like this, but i [and LOADS of other people too] suggest that if you are guilty of all that i have mentioned and more, please, PLEASE stop all this nonsense. it's NOT cool. it's imbecilic, idiotic and mindless.

brrr. damn. typing this entry is giving me a headache and a finger ache too. lol.

maths paper was terrible today. lost 21 marks already!!! a definite fail. i'm so so ruined!

Sunday, August 28, 2005

i was just looking at the seventeen [US] website...

my gosh!!! look at all those GORGEOUS shoes!!!!
ohmigod. ohmigod.
marc jacobs, roberto cavalli, dior, alexander mcqueen, vivienne westwood.... flaming hot stuff!

omg. makes me wanna wear heels everywhere i go.
but i can't, you see. reason is because i'll end up looking like a tall giraffe freak.
yah. so.. yah. i shall go hit the wall again.


fuck them celebrities. lol.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

1. What is your middle name? kai qi?
2. What color underwear are you wearing now? beige.
3. What are you listening to right now? cute guy's voice. (:
4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 02
5. What was the last thing you ate? instant noodles.
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? blue.
7. How is the weather right now? i'm guessing, still.
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? :D
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair. lol!
10. Favorite type of food? italian and japanese.
11. Do you drink? sometimes.
12. Do you smoke? nahh.
13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did? nope.
14. Hair color? dark brown.
15. Eye color? dark brown.
16. Do you wear contacts? yes.
17. Single? yep.
18. Favorite Month? december.
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? a few times.
20. Last movie you watched? ocean's twelve.
21. Favorite Day of the Year? christmas!!
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? yup. most of the time.
23. Hugs or Kisses? both.
24. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate. [or vanilla.]
25.Do you want your friends to respond? why not?
26. Who is most likely to respond? dunno.
27. Who is least likely to respond? dunno either.
28. What books are you reading? the mediator.
29. Piercings? ears.
30. Fav. movie? most of the movies that i've watched are nice.
31. Fav. baseball team? don't watch baseball.
32. Any pets? two cats! ginger and patches!
33. YAHOO!? do you yahoo?
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? anything's fine.
35. Dogs or cats? cats! :D [dogs are great too.]
36. Favorite Flower? any flower's nice.
37. Have you ever fired a gun? nope. would love to though.
38. Do you like to travel by plane? it's okay.
39. Right-handed or Left-handed? right-handed.
40. How many pillows do you sleep with? one pathetic one.
41. Are you missing someone? yep. missing loads of people.
42. Who do you think is gorgeous? liv tyler, catherine zeta-jones. many others actually.

My Confessions Include...

[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an ipod.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for eyes.
[x] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.
[ ] I have "x"s on my buddy list. (in sn's)
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with someone.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.(its a book)
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a moth in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see/have seen a therapist.
[x] I love chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails. [sometimes.]
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] Play computer games/video games when I'm bored.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[ ] Saw a shooting star.
[ ] Had a serious injury.
[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[ ] Kissed a stranger.
[ ] Hugged a stranger.
[x] Been in a fight with the same sex. (verbally)
[ ] Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts.

haha. wheee. from az. :D

Friday, August 26, 2005

had chinese and geography today. chinese was quite okay considering that i was staring at the vocabulary book last night and this morning before the test. although i still left one pathetic blank! i totally had no idea what the comprehension was talking about. i was rushing three comprehension questions. the time just flys when you don't know stuff.

geography kind of killed me. i wrote lots of crap. i know what's an ecosystem but i don't know how to put it down in words! i didn't really read up on that. oh, my handwriting was pretty atrocious too.

had prata at simpang after school! yum.

going to school at ten tomorrow. to revise my maths. in school uniform!! my maths is so bad that i don't even know the basics on most chapters.

i wanna exercise.
after the common tests, one week holidays!!! SHOPPING, SLEEPOVER, DAY AT A BEACH. whee! fun!! let's just hope i do well ya. haha.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

wow. school was boring. haha. had art today. mrs jonoh told us not to lift the pencil from the paper and i kept lifting so she hit my hand. ouchie.

went to kfc for lunch. i am broke once again. saw two hot guys but they left quite fast. after that, while walking to the bus stop, we saw them again with another bunch of cute guys [in jc uniform. hmm..] at starbucks! hahahaha. whee.

i had the most boring sunday ever. sat at the wake from 3pm to 8pm doing absolutely nothing except snacking! by the time i left, which was by myself in a cab, they were still waiting to start chanting!

this is scary! common tests are nearing! thank god my dad is flying back to china on thursday. that's the first paper! haha phew.

i wanna change my phone to the nokia N90!! it's so prettieee! haha. oh and i haven't watched a movie since forever. gosh! it's unbelievable how long it has been. what is wrong with me.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

just got back from harbourfront. went to telok blangah again for an FD meeting. all the three HQs were there. super crowded!

hmm. it was alright. lots of talking. many people went up to give testimonials and talks. yeah. sat there stoning and talking crap with friends. hsinrui couldn't go! oh man. had a group photo! many, many people squeezed into one photo! hahaha. squatted till my legs hurt!

after that went for dinner at harbourfront with beatrice. hahaha. we are good bitching partners! walked around for a bit. went in rounds. lol. hmm. then we had macdonald's again!!! gahh. used the computer there. haha. the keyboard sucked. someone with obsessive complusive disorder must have used it. the person must have kept pressing the spacebar or something because it so wasn't working properly. anyways. walked a bit more then we went home. such a long train ride. then i still had to take a 229 back.

now, i'm waiting for my dad to pick me up to go to my uncle's wake. he just passed away this morning. so sudden.

the freaky part is that it happened twice in a row. the last time my dad came back from china, my auntie [uncle's wife] passed away. then now, he came back again and my uncle passed away too. not that they were very healthy or anything but still! so coincidental! creepy.

ookay. so there's nothing else to blog about. bye.

you know that i exist now but you pretend that you don't know a single shit.
what do you take me for? a fool? no hello, no goodbye. what the fuck.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

turns out, i didn't go to parkway. instead, i went to gourmet plus at frankel avenue.

yummy yummy food!!! their desserts are so superb. i had a chocolate cake with hot fudge on top together with vanilla ice cream and then after that i ordered one more dessert which was a pear tart and vanilla ice cream. so delicious. :9

gosh! i so need to exercise!!!

the nine o'clock show on channel eight is pretty interesting. lol.

the week has been going quite well..

did my advertisement today during english. it was a total failure but so fun! haha.

hmm. now i'm gonna go to parkway for my dinner with me dad and mum.

byeeeee.

Monday, August 15, 2005

it's such a mundane monday today. i'm getting bored out of my wits.
i probably said that 3849329 times already.

i feel so dumb.
stupid; idiotic; brainless; foolish; imbecilic; inane; naive; gullible; moronic; senseless.

i'm such a retard. it was so obvious, how could i not see it?!
someone kill me now, use a shotgun/machine gun/bazooka/knife/dagger/chopper/pen knife/fork/chopsticks whatever makes you happy just kill me as quickly as possible kthx.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

my dad came back this morning, like around five. almost two days delayed.

yup. then my brother's poly friends came over to use photoshop and illustrator. they used both computers for the entire day.

they only left after my dad, my mum and i went to bedok food center for dinner. my dad kept complaining that bfc is lousy. ahahhaha. i find it okay la.
he's so fussy and yet he ate so much.

yesterday's family day performance was okay. got to see amanda, beatrice and waimun! oh and glenna! ((: but i was also kinda sad about.. it really dampened my mood quite a bit.

Friday, August 12, 2005

GIRL TALK

01. Do you stuff your bra? nope.
02. Have you ever stuffed your bra? nah.
03. What make-up do you wear daily? usually nothing. maybe eyeliner.
04. What are your underwear like right now? it's in beige? haha.
05. How many pairs of shoes do you own? many. but only a few that i really wear.
06. Come on, tell the truth. Is that really your true hair color? yep.
07. What do you most like about your body? eh. my.... right ear? LOL.
08. And least? my frikking fat thighs!
09. How many fillings do you have? ? in the teeth? none.
10. Do you think you're good looking? ask my friends!
11. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? it's just a form of courtesy, i guess.
12. Do you look like any celebrities? not exactly.
13. Do you like a man with muscles or not? not too much that he looks like some oversized... thing.
14. Tall or short men? erm. tall or short. as a partner, tall please. as a friend, both are fine. (:
15. Does your dream guy have long or short hair? depends on whether he suits the hairstyle.
16. What's the hair situation 'down there'? right.
17. How long is your leg hair? they're gone. haha.
18. Ever come close to having sex, but didn't? eh.. no?
19. With who? (:
20. If so, why didn't you? .
21. Are your eyebrows a different color from your hair? no.
22. Do you pluck your eyebrows? yep.
23. When did you last have a hickey, and where? i haven't had one.
24. Are you on birth control? no. lol.
25. Can you dance? sort of.
27. Do you struggle with self-esteem? yeah. sometimes.
28. Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder? nopes.
30. If you unexpectedly got pregnant, what would you do? discuss with the bloody guy. HAHA.
31. Future daughters/sons names? dunno. it'll have to match with their sirname.
32. Do your underwear and bras usually match? not on purpose. haha.

X THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE!!

(X) snuck out of the house
(X) gotten lost in your city
( ) saw a shooting star
(X) been to any other countries besides singapore
( ) had a serious surgery
( ) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(X) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
( ) been in love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) skinny-dipped
(X) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
( ) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
( ) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
( ) gotten the chicken pox
(X) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
(X) been to Japan
(X) ridden in a taxi
(X) been dumped
( ) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
(X) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(X) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(X) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been skiing/snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
( ) purposely hurt yourself
( ) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now and another!!

[liek, i'm such a loser. haven't done so many things!!
except for those bad ones that i do not ever wish to do.]

THE PAST

01. Any good memories from this year? that day at pizzahut with my besties! drumming festival. YCF! esplanade on the sixth of august. and many others!
02. Any bad memories from this year? not many yet.
03. Do you regret anything from this year? yes.
04. Do you regret anything you've ever done? alot of stuff i regret doing.
05. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? big C. kind of. well, i don't know aye.
06. Did you ever have braces? yup! just took them off. whee.
07. What is your best childhood memory? playing masak with my auntie!
08. Do you have the same friends you did when you were seven and under? i've lost touch with all of them. it's sad.
09. What color hair did you have as a kid? black? dark brown?
10. What does your name mean? i've read somewhere that it means honey bee. and it's a herb name. (:

THE PRESENT

01. Current Music: reckless abandon - blink 182
02. Current CD in player: empty.
03. Current conversations: nicholas and some sex-crazed freak whom i do NOT know.
04. Current time: 7.55pm
05. Current clothes: school uniform.
06. Current hair: tied up but still messy.
07. Current taste: air. lol.
08. Current mood: famished.
09. Current smell: i don't smell anything.
10. Current thing you should be doing: bathing or eating. lol.
11. Current desktop picture: it's a blue lemon on a white background. yes, irony.
12. Current favorite group: dashboard confessional / box car racer / blink 182 :D
13. Current book: hmm. the mediator.
14. Current refreshment: none.
15. Current worry: common tests and THAT GUY.
16. Current crush: (:

ahh. i haven't done these surveys for soooooo long! haha. ripped it off from az. ahahaha. thanks babe.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

boring day at school, as usual.

jean was sick. so was hsinrui. poor girls! hope they recover soon. take care yeahs?
well, i'm not too good myself. been having this cough and sore throat for like, weeks!

went to parkway after school with my momma. hahaha. i'm feeling super bad right now because i just spent alot on clothes. they're pretty! couldn't resist! haha.
thank you mummy! i love her so much! haha. i better study hard. make her feel happier.

oh, dad coming home tomorrow.
i know that you guys know that already but i'm just typing it down for fun. yeah.

home econs tomorrow! gonna do some cooking! wonder what we must cook. also, we have to film the advertisement for english lesson. it's gonna be so embarrassing!

ouch, my finger.
there are like a thousand bags hanging from my study room door handle. it's difficult to even close the door properly!

that's reminds me.. I WANT THAT BLOODY ROXY BAG THAT'S HANGING OFF CITILINK MALL'S FLASH AND SPLASH RACK.

fuck it, i just remembered that there's co practice tomorrow!!

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

what kind of fucking air conditioner is this anyway?
one degree lower and it's freaking cold, one degree higher and it's like as if it's not even on.
haha but whatever.

i'm so not looking forward to school tomorrow!
thursdays just suck.

i have been camping online. boy, am i sooo bored.

my thighs are just so fat!!! can't stand it anymore! it pains me just to look at them.

omfg. i really have no life whatsoever. blogging twice in a day! and on such random stuff.. how pathetic. i shall go hit my head on the wall.. or something. bye.

i miss him.

i'm stoned.

i still have chinese tuition at three.

school starts tomorrow. eugh.

common tests are starting in two weeks time.

my dad is coming home this friday.

*faints*

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Monday, August 08, 2005

alright. this is gonna be such a long post, you'll cry reading. hahahaha.

i'll start with saturday. met vivian and headed to harbourfront. wanted to buy a red top for monday but i ended up buying a polo and a pair of shorts instead. hee. bumped into hsinrui and her family having their lunch, so we got a lift to ssa. haha. i don't know what was up with me but i just couldn't dance properly. i kept messing up. eugh. horrible.

after that, hsinrui and i went to city hall to meet kajie first. the others came at 6.30. [daiyu, aldrich, chinhan, yixiang.]
we went window shopping while waiting for the others.
WE SAW THIS BLACK ROXY BAG WHICH IS ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS AND COSTS ONLY FIFTY BUCKS! sadly, however, i did not have enough moolah.
i miss it. i HAVE to go back there to buy it.
okay, so, we met them and walked over to esplanade. there were loads of people. super crowded. i bumped into some dance people too!

we wanted to eat so we crossed over to marina square. that place was under renovation so we were pretty lost. ate at cavana. they only sell chicken dishes. haha. i bought a cup of ice milo for two bucks and clumsy me had to go drop the cup and spill it over the table. lols. the manager was so nice though!! he gave me another cup of ice milo, free of charge! so kind of him! hahaha.

oh, the sad thing was, the fireworks started while we were eating!!! we caught a glimpse of it through the reflection on the building opposite of us. we could only see half of the fireworks. but it was still nice! i especially like the sparkles. ahha. so beautiful. (:

after eating, we slacked around and decided to go back to the esplanade. bought cotton candy!! it's been years since i ate one of those. hsinrui bought me a light stick!! yay! thanks! haha. hmm. we sat at the steps and took lots of photos! lots and lots of spastic and funny photos! i love them so much! haha.

the performance started at ten. that was the time we had to leave. haha. how pathetic. hmm. but still, it was fun! next time, we come [not leave] at ten! that'll be much much fun-ner. haha. reached home at around twelve. everyone's scared to walk alone at this time of the month. it's freaking me out. haha

yesterday, i met huifang, vivienne and claire. we went to victoria concert hall but were freaking early so we walked back to near the mrt to get a drink [ice milo AGAIN] from macdonald's and then we walked back. haha. how retarded.
when we reached, everyone blamed us for being late.
liek, what-ever.
the concert was just totally boring to me. i guess i don't understand the music. too bad for me then. it was a chinese orchestra concert.

when it finally ended after two hours, we headed down to bugis. ate mos burger. yum!
walked over to bugis street. i still needed to buy a red top for monday. vivienne needed to buy jeans. i bought this pair of cute pink button earstuds. haha. also this pair of black shorts for twenty-two bucks! i really can't bargain.

all three of them bought the same jeans for twenty-five dollars each. omg. i love it too! the colour, the cutting and everything! but when i tried it on, it looked so weird!

i regret not buying it though!! i could have gotten it for even cheaper! they found out that another store was selling it for twenty-three. haha. they got kinda pissed off about it and complained to the uncle who sold it to them which made them even more infuriated. but oh well... dammit. i still want one pair. oh. and i didn't buy anything red. haha.

i wore the red polo that i wore last year today. great.

i need a bloody bag la. that roxy one will fit perfectly!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

i've decided.

i'll try not to care anymore. i said TRY.
i don't know if i can do it but i'll try my best.

for now, i will just hang out and spend my time with all my friends, especially my besties. they're the best!
friends are far more important anyways.
they are like, for life.
i love all of you!

i'm beginning to really hate school. okay, maybe i already hated it from the start, but now, it just plainly sucks to the effing core.
i think it's because of two reasons.
one, abraham is on course and so, alot of the teachers want to have higher authority.
[ha. what losers.]
two, mr lak is just fucks la.

every teacher is coming into the class in a bad mood. then, they vent all their anger on us.
english is turning dumb. english is a language. why the hell do we have to learn how to read and create advertisements??

maths is boring. just, extremely boring. i can't explain it. it does not interest me at all. mr sum is so long-winded. but one thing that's good about him, he can't scold for nuts during class! he'll get all fierce and scary but before you know it, he'll crack a joke and we laugh, then he'll laugh with us. he's nice la.. usually.

science is just a completely blur to me. it's like, i don't know what the hell she's talking about!!! i'm so gonna fail my science. miss sim is nice most of the time, except when she asks me questions!

geography and history are still okay. the teachers are pretty lenient. miss lian is a little naggy at times, but she has lightened up alot compared to the last two terms. i lost my bloody geography workbook! mr lim [or lee. until now, i'm still not sure. LOL!] forgets about homework. hahaha! he gives us lots of history notes too.

art is a killer subject for me. i can't catch up!! she goes too bloody fast! mrs jonoh is like funny and fierce at the same time. kinda scary. but she's very sarcastic and on good terms with the girls. haha.

chinese lesson can go to hell, burn and die. miss dong is too soft. hard to hear what she's saying with her accent too. she looks like she's talking to herself sometimes. lol. i pity her at times but usually i just can't stand her. i don't why either. it's like, i just don't look forward to seeing her. hahaha. i know, i sound so bias against her. lol.

ho-kay. enough about my damn school life.

i need to shop. it has been so long. i need it to study! hahaHAHA. lols. dammit.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i'm slowly slipping into depression.

omg, i sound so emo but yeah, it's kind of true.

i don't know what to do anymore.

i feel so fucking used.

actually, i shouldn't be feeling this way.

i should have known.

i had been warned beforehand.

argh, fuck this.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

i was on cloud nine yesterday...
but i just came back down to earth, hitting the ground really hard.

so painful.

it's really hurting to know.

but i guess i'm happy because i still had a chance.

(: ..

): .

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